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Syme had vanished. A
morning came, and he was missing from work: a few thoughtless people
commented on his absence. On the next day nobody mentioned him. On the
third day Winston went into the vestibule of the Records Department to
look at the notice-board. One of the notices carried a printed list of
the members of the Chess Committee, of whom Syme had been one. It looked
almost exactly as it had looked before – nothing had been crossed out
– but it was one name shorter. It was enough. Syme had ceased to exist:
he had never existed.
The weather was baking hot. In the labyrinthine Ministry the windowless,
air-conditioned rooms kept their normal temperature, but outside the
pavements scorched one's feet and the stench of the Tubes at the rush
hours was a horror. The preparations for Hate Week were in full swing,
and the staffs of all the Ministries were working overtime. Processions,
meetings, military parades, lectures, waxworks, displays, film shows,
telescreen programmes all had to be organized; stands had to be erected,
effigies built, slogans coined, songs written, rumours circulated,
photographs faked. Julia's unit in the Fiction Department had been taken
off the production of novels and was rushing out a series of atrocity
pamphlets. Winston, in addition to his regular work, spent long periods
every day in going through back files of The Times and altering and
embellishing news items which were to be quoted in speeches. Late at
night, when crowds of rowdy proles roamed the streets, the town had a
curiously febrile air. The rocket bombs crashed oftener than ever, and
sometimes in the far distance there were enormous explosions which no
one could explain and about which there were wild rumours.
The new tune which was to be the theme-song of Hate Week (the Hate Song,
it was called) had already been composed and was being endlessly plugged
on the telescreens. It had a savage, barking rhythm which could not
exactly be called music, but resembled the beating of a drum. Roared out
by hundreds of voices to the tramp of marching feet, it was terrifying.
The proles had taken a fancy to it, and in the midnight streets it
competed with the still-popular 'It was only a hopeless fancy'. The
Parsons children played it at all hours of the night and day,
unbearably, on a comb and a piece of toilet paper. Winston's evenings
were fuller than ever. Squads of volunteers, organized by Parsons, were
preparing the street for Hate Week, stitching banners, paint ing posters,
erecting flagstaffs on the roofs, and perilously slinging wires across
the street for the reception of streamers. Parsons boasted that Victory
Mansions alone would display four hundred metres of bunting. He was in
his native element and as happy as a lark. The heat and the manual work
had even given him a pretext for reverting to shorts and an open shirt
in the evenings. He was everywhere at once, pushing, pulling, sawing,
hammering, improvising, jollying everyone along with comradely
exhortations and giving out from every fold of his body what seemed an
inexhaustible supply of acrid-smelling sweat.
A new poster had suddenly appeared all over London. It had no caption,
and represented simply the monstrous figure of a Eurasian soldier, three
or four metres high, striding forward with expressionless Mongolian face
and enormous boots, a submachine gun pointed from his hip. From whatever
angle you looked at the poster, the muzzle of the gun, magnified by the
foreshortening, seemed to be pointed straight at you. The thing had been
plastered on every blank space on every wall, even outnumbering the
portraits of Big Brother. The proles, normally apathetic about the war,
were being lashed into one of their periodical frenzies of patriotism.
As though to harmonize with the general mood, the rocket bombs had been
killing larger numbers of people than usual. One fell on a crowded film
theatre in Stepney, burying several hundred victims among the ruins. The
whole population of the neighbourhood turned out for a long, trailing
funeral which went on for hours and was in effect an indignation
meeting. Another bomb fell on a piece of waste ground which was used as
a playground and several dozen children were blown to pieces. There were
further angry demonstrations, Goldstein was burned in effigy, hundreds
of copies of the poster of the Eurasian soldier were torn down and added
to the flames, and a number of shops were looted in the turmoil; then a
rumour flew round that spies were directing the rocket bombs by means of
wireless waves, and an old couple who were suspected of being of foreign
extraction had their house set on fire and perished of suffocation.
In the room over Mr Charrington's shop, when they could get there, Julia
and Winston lay side by side on a stripped bed under the open window,
naked for the sake of coolness. The rat had never come back, but the
bugs had multiplied hideously in the heat. It did not seem to matter.
Dirty or clean, the room was paradise. As soon as they arrived they
would sprinkle everything with pepper bought on the black market, tear
off their clothes, and make love with sweating bodies, then fall asleep
and wake to find that the bugs had rallied and were massing for the
counter-attack.
Four, five, six – seven times they met during the month of June.
Winston had dropped his habit of drinking gin at all hours. He seemed to
have lost the need for it. He had grown fatter, his varicose ulcer had
subsided, leaving only a brown stain on the skin above his ankle, his
fits of coughing in the early morning had stopped. The process of life
had ceased to be intolerable, he had no longer any impulse to make faces
at the telescreen or shout curses at the top of his voice. Now that they
had a secure hiding-place, almost a home, it did not even seem a
hardship that they could only meet infrequently and for a couple of
hours at a time. What mattered was that the room over the junk-shop
should exist. To know that it was there, inviolate, was almost the same
as being in it. The room was a world, a pocket of the past where extinct
animals could walk. Mr Charrington, thought Winston, was another extinct
animal. He usually stopped to talk with Mr Charrington for a few minutes
on his way upstairs. The old man seemed seldom or never to go out of
doors, and on the other hand to have almost no customers. He led a
ghostlike existence between the tiny, dark shop, and an even tinier back
kitchen where he prepared his meals and which contained, among other
things, an unbelievably ancient gramophone with an enormous horn. He
seemed glad of the opportunity to talk. Wandering about among his
worthless stock, with his long nose and thick spectacles and his bowed
shoulders in the velvet jacket, he had always vaguely the air of being a
collector rather than a tradesman. With a sort of faded enthusiasm he
would finger this scrap of rubbish or that – a china bottle-stopper,
the paint ed lid of a broken snuffbox, a pinchbeck locket containing a
strand of some long-dead baby's hair – never asking that Winston should
buy it, merely that he should admire it. To talk to him was like
listening to the tinkling of a worn-out musical-box. He had dragged out
from the corners of his memory some more fragments of forgotten rhymes.
There was one about four and twenty blackbirds, and another about a cow
with a crumpled horn, and another about the death of poor Cock Robin.
'It just occurred to me you might be interested,' he would say with a
deprecating little laugh whenever he produced a new fragment. But he
could never recall more than a few lines of any one rhyme.
Both of them knew – in a way, it was never out of their minds – that
what was now happening could not last long. There were times when the
fact of impending death seemed as palpable as the bed they lay on, and
they would cling together with a sort of despairing sensuality, like a
damned soul grasping at his last morsel of pleasure when the clock is
within five minutes of striking. But there were also times when they had
the illusion not only of safety but of permanence. So long as they were
actually in this room, they both felt, no harm could come to them.
Getting there was difficult and dangerous, but the room itself was
sanctuary. It was as when Winston had gazed into the heart of the
paperweight, with the feeling that it would be possible to get inside
that glassy world, and that once inside it time could be arrested. Often
they gave themselves up to daydreams of escape. Their luck would hold
indefinitely, and they would carry on their intrigue, just like this,
for the remainder of their natural lives. Or Katharine would die, and by
subtle manoeuvrings Winston and Julia would succeed in getting married.
Or they would commit suicide together. Or they would disappear, alter
themselves out of recognition, learn to speak with proletarian accents,
get jobs in a factory and live out their lives undetected in a
back-street. It was all nonsense, as they both knew. In reality there
was no escape. Even the one plan that was practicable, suicide, they had
no intention of carrying out. To hang on from day to day and from week
to week, spinning out a present that had no future, seemed an
unconquerable instinct, just as one's lungs will always draw the next
breath so long as there is air available.
Sometimes, too, they talked of engaging in active rebellion against the
Party, but with no notion of how to take the first step. Even if the
fabulous Brotherhood was a reality, there still remained the difficulty
of finding one's way into it. He told her of the strange intimacy that
existed, or seemed to exist, between himself and O'Brien, and of the
impulse he sometimes felt, simply to walk into O'Brien's presence,
announce that he was the enemy of the Party, and demand his help.
Curiously enough, this did not strike her as an impossibly rash thing to
do. She was used to judging people by their faces, and it seemed natural
to her that Winston should believe O'Brien to be trustworthy on the
strength of a single flash of the eyes. Moreover she took it for granted
that everyone, or nearly everyone, secretly hated the Party and would
break the rules if he thought it safe to do so. But she refused to
believe that widespread, organized opposition existed or could exist.
The tales about Goldstein and his underground army, she said, were
simply a lot of rubbish which the Party had invented for its own
purposes and which you had to pretend to believe in. Times beyond
number, at Party rallies and spontaneous demonstrations, she had shouted
at the top of her voice for the execution of people whose names she had
never heard and in whose supposed crimes she had not the faintest
belief. When public trials were happening she had taken her place in the
detachments from the Youth League who surrounded the courts from morning
to night, chanting at intervals 'Death to the traitors!' During the Two
Minutes Hate she always excelled all others in shouting insults at
Goldstein. Yet she had only the dimmest idea of who Goldstein was and
what doctrines he was supposed to represent. She had grown up since the
Revolution and was too young to remember the ideological battles of the
fifties and sixties. Such a thing as an independent political movement
was outside her imagination: and in any case the Party was invincible.
It would always exist, and it would always be the same. You could only
rebel against it by secret disobedience or, at most, by isolated acts of
violence such as killing somebody or blowing something up.
In some ways she was far more acute than Winston, and far less
susceptible to Party propaganda. Once when he happened in some connection
to mention the war against Eurasia, she startled him by saying casually
that in her opinion the war was not happening. The rocket bombs which
fell daily on London were probably fired by the Government of Oceania
itself, 'just to keep people frightened'. This was an idea that had
literally never occurred to him. She also stirred a sort of envy in him
by telling him that during the Two Minutes Hate her great difficulty was
to avoid bursting out laughing. But she only questioned the teachings of
the Party when they in some way touched upon her own life. Often she was
ready to accept the official mythology, simply because the difference
between truth and falsehood did not seem important to her. She believed,
for instance, having learnt it at school, that the Party had invented
aeroplanes. (In his own schooldays, Winston remembered, in the late
fifties, it was only the helicopter that the Party claimed to have
invented; a dozen years later, when Julia was at school, it was already
claiming the aeroplane; one generation more, and it would be claiming
the steam engine.) And when he told her that aeroplanes had been in
existence before he was born and long before the Revolution, the fact
struck her as totally uninteresting. After all, what did it matter who
had invented aeroplanes? It was rather more of a shock to him when he
discovered from some chance remark that she did not remember that
Oceania, four years ago, had been at war with Eastasia and at peace with
Eurasia. It was true that she regarded the whole war as a sham: but
apparently she had not even noticed that the name of the enemy had
changed. 'I thought we'd always been at war with Eurasia,' she said
vaguely. It frightened him a little. The invention of aeroplanes dated
from long before her birth, but the switchover in the war had happened
only four years ago, well after she was grown up. He argued with her
about it for perhaps a quarter of an hour. In the end he succeeded in
forcing her memory back until she did dimly recall that at one time
Eastasia and not Eurasia had been the enemy. But the issue still struck
her as unimportant. 'Who cares?' she said impatiently. 'It's always one
bloody war after another, and one knows the news is all lies anyway.'
Sometimes he talked to her of the Records Department and the impudent
forgeries that he committed there. Such things did not appear to horrify
her. She did not feel the abyss opening beneath her feet at the thought
of lies becoming truths. He told her the story of Jones, Aaronson, and
Rutherford and the momentous slip of paper which he had once held
between his fingers. It did not make much impression on her. At first,
indeed, she failed to grasp the point of the story.
'Were they friends of yours?' she said.
'No, I never knew them. They were Inner Party members. Besides, they
were far older men than I was. They belonged to the old days, before the
Revolution. I barely knew them by sight.'
'Then what was there to worry about? People are being killed off all the
time, aren't they?'
He tried to make her understand. 'This was an exceptional case. It
wasn't just a question of somebody being killed. Do you realize that the
past, starting from yesterday, has been actually abolished? If it
survives anywhere, it's in a few solid objects with no words attached to
them, like that lump of glass there. Already we know almost literally
nothing about the Revolution and the years before the Revolution. Every
record has been destroyed or falsified, every book has been rewritten,
every picture has been repaint ed, every statue and street and building
has been renamed, every date has been altered. And that process is
continuing day by day and minute by minute. History has stopped. Nothing
exists except an endless present in which the Party is always right. I
know, of course, that the past is falsified, but it would never be
possible for me to prove it, even when I did the falsification myself.
After the thing is done, no evidence ever remains. The only evidence is
inside my own mind, and I don't know with any certainty that any other
human being shares my memories. Just in that one instance, in my whole
life, I did possess actual concrete evidence after the event – years
after it.'
'And what good was that?'
'It was no good, because I threw it away a few minutes later. But if the
same thing happened today, I should keep it.'
'Well, I wouldn't!' said Julia. 'I'm quite ready to take risks, but only
for something worth while, not for bits of old newspaper. What could you
have done with it even if you had kept it?'
'Not much, perhaps. But it was evidence. It might have planted a few
doubts here and there, supposing that I'd dared to show it to anybody. I
don't imagine that we can alter anything in our own lifetime. But one
can imagine little knots of resistance springing up here and there –
small groups of people banding themselves together, and gradually
growing, and even leaving a few records behind, so that the next
generations can carry on where we leave off.'
'I'm not interested in the next generation, dear. I'm interested in us.'
'You're only a rebel from the waist downwards,' he told her.
She thought this brilliantly witty and flung her arms round him in
delight.
In the ramifications of party doctrine she had not the faintest
interest. Whenever he began to talk of the principles of Ingsoc,
doublethink, the mutability of the past, and the denial of objective
reality, and to use Newspeak words, she became bored and confused and
said that she never paid any attention to that kind of thing. One knew
that it was all rubbish, so why let oneself be worried by it? She knew
when to cheer and when to boo, and that was all one needed. If he
persisted in talking of such subjects, she had a disconcerting habit of
falling asleep. She was one of those people who can go to sleep at any
hour and in any position. Talking to her, he realized how easy it was to
present an appearance of orthodoxy while having no grasp whatever of
what orthodoxy meant. In a way, the world-view of the Party imposed
itself most successfully on people incapable of understanding it. They
could be made to accept the most flagrant violations of reality, because
they never fully grasped the enormity of what was demanded of them, and
were not sufficiently interested in public events to notice what was
happening. By lack of understanding they remained sane. They simply
swallowed everything, and what they swallowed did them no harm, because
it left no residue behind, just as a grain of corn will pass undigested
through the body of a bird.
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